2013年2月27日星期三

A Passport to Nanomedicine Success - ScienceNOW

A Passport to Nanomedicine Success - ScienceNOW


It's a popular goal in nanotechnology these days: using tiny particles as containers to ferry drugs to tumors, among other targets. But immune sentries called macrophages quickly spot foreign invaders and gobble them up. Now, a team of Pennsylvania researchers has found a way to give particles a molecular "passport" that gets them past the sentries in mice, where the particles then deliver their lethal cargo to tumors and help destroy them. That success is stoking hope for a new way to improve the delivery of drugs.

The body's immune system exists to identify and destroy foreign objects, whether they are bacteria, viruses, flecks of dirt, or splinters. As one of the immune system's primary defenders, macrophages work to eliminate objects they don't recognize as being part of the body. All human cells contain a protein called CD47 on their outer membrane coat. Five years ago, researchers led by Dennis Discher, a cell biophysicist at the University of Pennsylvania, reported that in human cells CD47 binds to a receptor protein on macrophages called SIRPα. The binding lets macrophages know that the CD47-containing cell is a friend rather than a foe and should not be eaten.

Discher wondered whether he might be able to use a facsimile of CD47 as a molecular passport to help therapeutic nanoparticles bypass the immune system. In their current study, described online today in Science, Discher and his colleagues copied short snippets of the CD47 protein, known as peptides, and attached them to nanoparticles designed to ferry either imaging agents or anticancer compounds to tumors. The strategy worked just as they had hoped. In mice engineered so their macrophage cells would mimic those of people, expressing the human SIRPα protein, nanoparticles tagged with the CD47 peptide passports stuck around in the circulation rather than being gobbled up. When the group injected nanoparticles with and without the passport at the same time, 35 minutes later those with CD47 peptides were four times as abundant in the animals' blood as the control nanoparticles were.

In a separate study, Discher and colleagues tested whether their approach could improve the delivery of drugs. They loaded nanoparticles with the anticancer drug paclitaxel and decorated the particle surfaces with their passport peptides as well as with antibodies designed to attach to proteins on the surface of tumor cells. The targeted particles with the passports shrank tumors by 25% in a single day, while nanoparticles with the antibodies but without the peptide passports had no effect on the tumor size.

The paper has "really intriguing results," says Joseph DeSimone, a chemist and nanoparticle and drug delivery expert at the University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill. "It would be great to see this in other tumor models." Discher says his team is already at work on that. What's more, Discher says, unpublished work from his lab suggests that adding the molecular passports to viruses that deliver genes in gene therapy also helps them avoid immune detection. The new molecular passports still must prove their mettle in people, always a daunting hill to climb. If they do, they could potentially make nanomedicines already in clinical trials even more effective.

2011年3月31日星期四

物欲洪流里的精神追求

通宵没睡,早晨有困意躺下时却辗转反侧,心情异常烦躁。临近毕业,功课工作任务把时间占得满满的,忙碌且不规律的生活已经令我身体疲惫,现在又不可避免的造成了心理疲惫。

躺在床上,我播放着手机里的几首歌,《后来》,《很爱很爱你》,《盛夏的果实》,《至少还有你》,都是十年以上的老歌了。聆听着这些熟悉的旋律,细细品味着经典的歌词,确令我烦躁的心情得到了些许宁静。
我不甘于就这么无来由的烦躁,想了想最近忙碌的生活,确信正是这样高强度的学习生活导致了我现在精神生活的空虚。这给我拉响了警报。

我即将工作,在这样一个节奏快,高压且物质至上的社会里,如何维持并追求自己的精神生活是一个重要而困难的问题。
这个时刻,当我感到空虚而尝试在网上搜索“精神追求”的时候,网上精神文化的贫瘠令我惊讶。相反,无穷无尽的垃圾,物欲,色情,无聊内容充斥着互联网。这样巨大的反差令我愕然,被垃圾文化包围的感觉令我反胃,而我也为自己花费在垃圾文化上的时间和自己精神生活的匮乏而感到羞愧。

我同时感到幸运,因为泱泱中华五千年文化沉淀下了足够多的精华,我因此可以吸取足够的文化精华,清刷掉我沾染上的糟粕,进而完善地构建自己所追求的精神世界。而显然,这些不来自于互联网。

放眼这个世界,现实中天灾人祸不断,战争与贫穷使世界满目疮痍;虚拟网络上无聊低俗蔓延,更真实也更丑陋的人性一览无余。

这是一个经济极速发展的时代,这也是一个物欲横流,拜金至上的时代。
这是一个财富迅速积累的时代,这也是一个一夜成名,一夜暴富的时代。
这是一个梦想照进现实的时代,这也是一个欲望迅速膨胀,地球不堪重负的时代。

身在这个时代里,肩负着这个时代的个人使命,随着这个时代的物欲洪流,我期望保有自己一片清澈的精神世界。

我希望当我们这个时代成为历史,当后来人指着我们的时代叹息,“那是一个疯狂掠夺资源,垃圾文化覆盖,人人都为金钱失去灵魂的黑暗时代”时,有人能指出,“不,还是有一批有识之士,保守了自己和社会的精神文明。” 而我,期望成为其中的一员。

拥有美丽的精神家园,眼里的风景也会更美好。

2011年3月10日星期四

This post is for dear xiao hui

Love you! And think of you every day. My heart stays with you.

Time Flies

My last blog post was last Dec and now it's Mar, 1 quarter of the year. And I'm graduating in the next quarter, time flies, and flies really fast. Need to race against time.

2010年12月7日星期二

开心一下--大家男朋友送的最囧的礼物是......?

豆瓣的帖子,好笑+甜蜜。其实还是好笑的份多,哈哈。


她男朋友用旅行箱穿过了大半个北京城给她送了一箱蒙牛……结果全宿舍都变成囧脸。

还有送过电子秤的,后变成我们班女生的体重秤了囧。。。。。。

去海边旅游~买了一个很丑的用贝壳做的零钱罐!
也是很违心的说好喜欢~
 (女生说喜欢时也可能是敷衍的。。)

两条很丑的项链.
而且我不戴那东西.

很丑很丑且贵的包,后来在宿舍挂着装袜子,很久对门的mm来问,能不能把这个丑东西放起来,5555555555

我也不喜欢送纸鹤的男生,而且他还发动我们全宿舍和他全班同学帮他折,丢死人了。一大堆,放在那里吃灰,没P用。

我告诫他今天是情人节要送礼物,且明示我喜欢鲜花。
结果他送了一小朵有点委靡的不知名小红花...汗啊。

一中国结+一串红辣椒...
全寝室人都给雷死了-_-!
后来那东西一直都挂我们寝室里面,像避邪似的...囧

我……曾经含情脉脉地送了我女朋友一把手工做的榔头 -_-|||

还有几天就过期的巧克力
带回来给寝室姐妹们分了
巨难吃

送过我一堆办信用卡附赠的娃娃 抱枕
还说都是为了你我才办的卡 囧

- -..反正他送给我的没有喜欢的..

刚好上的时候,他怕我孤单,说要送我一个毛绒玩具,可以抱着睡觉,我问他是什么动物,他还不告诉我,最后我在宿舍楼下邮局提着一个巨长的盒子上楼,打开一看,吓傻了,原来是条鳄鱼!

钟~
囧死我!

异地恋,坐火车看我,书包里拿出洗衣粉送我,当时我就崩溃了,说是班里发的,那也不用千里迢迢来送我啊,囧囧囧

前男友:一束焉嗒嗒的玫瑰花,他说怕别人看见指指点点,套了个水果摊上那种黄色大塑料袋,拎着送我的。。。算了。。。心意到就好。。。

我的一个朋友 第一次去老丈人家,送了一箱方便面,太强悍了。

哎~~那不堪的记忆
我过生日,他送我个长的跟观音娘娘拿的基本一模一样的花瓶,可恶的是花瓶里居然插了支康乃馨!

ex送过一块颇贵的青瓜状洗面皂..........-0-
还有一个很囧的是听我朋友说的....她爸当年追她妈的时候送了瓶白花油!据说她妈到现在还珍藏着...

换了新身份证后
有一年情人节
把他那旧的给我了
说这就代表着的的所有
我看着那张烂烂身份证和上面奇丑的大头照。。
无语。。。

考研那会就送我一沓考试卷……是个多么务实的男人 = =#

呃~~ 大学远距离的时候
快递给我一纸箱 还专门跟寝室的姐妹显摆一圈然后一起打开
结果!!看见一只油绿油绿的正在吐丝的蚕~~~~~!!
当场真是 死的心都有

我朋友的男朋友在英国留学,在她生日时花了超贵的邮费寄回一个有传统英国红色的电话亭模型,哇噻,我们羡慕了很久,突然一个朋友发现模型底部印着:MADE IN CHINA........顿时笑喷

室友的前男友送了她一箱潘婷的洗发水。。。。。。。

男朋友没送过我东西(最可怜的。。)
原帖:http://www.douban.com/group/topic/4590169/

这个帖子太有趣了。也让我想起我送给小慧的那些礼物,希望我的小慧都喜欢它们。

2010年12月4日星期六

祷告与谦卑

感激神,祂领着我第一次仔细钻研《圣经·新约》。今天读到《马太福音》第6章,读之前,照常做一个简短祷告,而这次的祷告并不如常。
通常,我读经前祈祷:
“求神赐予我智慧,帮助我尽可能多地领悟您的话语”。
而今天,我静下心来,心中想到的是:
“感谢神,让我度过了美好的一天,感谢神赐给我小慧。求神带领我理解您希望我理解的话语,引导我看您希望我看到的话语。”
这个变化引起了我的思索。
前者我在索取,是“我”希望尽可能多地领悟神的话语,是“我”期望神协助我。
后者才是真正的谦卑,我没有自己的“期望”,只求神的带领,神带我到哪里,我就到哪里。

我为自己感受到的这份谦卑而开心,它带来宁静,它带来领悟。

当我读到第7节,耶稣教导道:
7 你 们 祷 告 , 不 可 像 外 邦 人 , 用 许 多 重 复 话 , 他 们 以 为 话 多 了 必 蒙 垂 听 。
 8 你 们 不 可 效 法 他 们 ; 因 为 你 们 没 有 祈 求 以 先 , 你 们 所 需 用 的 , 你 们 的 父 早 已 知 道 了 。
我再一次在这一段经文处反省。 我曾经并一直以来的祷告不就是反反复复地求神赐我福祉,祝福我或者他人吗?
耶稣说,这没有用。因为父完全知道我们需要什么,将赐予我们什么。我想大胆一点地说,这种反反复复求祝福的祷告在父的耳朵里是毫无意义如噪音的存在。

不求祝福,那祷告说什么呢?
耶稣一个字都没有间隔,以主祷文教导我们:
"9 所 以 , 你 们 祷 告 要 这 样 说 : 我 们 在 天 上 的 父 : 愿 人 都 尊 你 的 名 为 圣 。
 10 愿 你 的 国 降 临 ; 愿 你 的 旨 意 行 在 地 上 , 如 同 行 在 天 上 。
 11 我 们 日 用 的 饮 食 , 今 日 赐 给 我 们 。
 12 免 我 们 的 债 , 如 同 我 们 免 了 人 的 债 。
 13 不 叫 我 们 遇 见 试 探 ; 救 我 们 脱 离 凶 恶 ( 或 作 : 脱 离 恶 者 ) 。 因 为 国 度 、 权 柄 、 荣 耀 , 全 是 你 的 , 直 到 永 远 。 阿 们 ( 有 古 卷 没 有 因 为 … … 阿 们 等 字 ) !"
主祷文里看到的是,尊父的名,听父的旨意,求父的恩泽,宽恕和救恩,以及最后将荣耀全部归给主。第11节求神赐予饮食,我理解这并不是向神索取自己想要的,而是感激神赐给我们所需的。
可以看到整段主祷文都是谦卑地称颂天父,求天父的宽恕与救恩,毫无对自己欲望的索求。
 这是耶稣教导的主祷文,也就是神希望听到的祷告。

而我必须承认自己长久以来的祷告与此相去甚远。虽然我也感谢称颂神,但我一直以来的祷告从来都是以向神索取祝福为中心,对神的称颂也往往源自某个祝福的实现和追求更多的祝福。

以自己的意志为中心,为自己的欲望祈求神的眷恋,这种谦卑是虚假的谦卑。

我为自己感到羞愧,毫不夸张,毫不掩饰,我将自己这样的祷告及心态定为严重的错误。
像主祷文里说的,主啊,我祈求您恕我的罪,就像我恕了人的罪。

错误应该修正了。求神引导我,领我走向你正确的道,不至于被迷惑。

我不求什么,只求你在我心里,领着我前行,结出好的果,荣耀你的名。你预备给我的恩赐,我只感激谦卑领受。

2010年11月20日星期六

Sweet card + jacket from XiaoHui

:D They are really sweet, dear is really sweet and creative! I love them so much, and I'm really amazed by dear's creativity and love :D

This nice card -- In memory of our 11th month of being together.
The colorful cover page:

The Juventus (my favorite soccer team) jacket -- In memory of our 1st Anniversary
The front -- with a 'J', which also stands for my first name :)
The back -- with the 'Juventus' logo
It's a jacket of my favorite team from my most beloved dear xiaohui. It's my favorite clothes now. :D
Thank you dear, they are really nice, I can feel your sweet love, and I love u!

2010年10月18日星期一

Time passes fast

Really fast, unbelievably fast.
It's been one month since dear's departure, one and half month since the start of my final year study, and now I feel I am graduating, very soon. Indeed it will be very soon, from now late Oct, till next year Apr, my final year is left with less than 6 months actually. Well, it's a minor shock when I realized this but it's also exciting.

Time flies, so I need more progress, to achieve my goals and fulfill my dreams.

Dear's card

I received dear's handmade card today! The design is fabulous, amazing, great, super nice! I am astonished by dear's work. I would be greatly pleased by a simple card made by dear, but this time she really surprised and impressed me with her wonderful creativity, which I never expected before honestly.

My dear is amazing, simply amazing.

2010年10月13日星期三

纪念日

和小慧在一起的第十一个月,谨以此纪念这美好的日子。我爱小慧!

2010年10月8日星期五

一年前的今天

我的IA application被拒绝了,郁闷的我发短信告诉了小慧,她好心地安慰了我,令我感到宽心。
晚上是cg,我没找到机会和小慧说话。离开后我发短信问她觉得我的offering msg怎么样,还故意问了她为什么我们总没机会在cg说话。。
那时我就有些喜欢她了,希望有机会靠近她和她说话,又有点害羞。。

唐崇荣南大讲道会

一年前就想去听唐崇荣牧师讲道,可惜错过了。今天晚上终于近距离地听唐牧师讲道,宣讲题为“信仰与理性”,地点在南大课堂。
开场唐崇荣牧师就请一位学生上台互动,风趣地了解介绍后就询问这位学生父亲的情况。

“你从什么时候就是你父亲的儿子了?”
“从我出生前。”
“那你从什么时候就知道你是你父亲的儿子呢?”
“生下来之后。”
“那你是怎么知道你父亲就是你的父亲的?”
“我爸爸和我妈妈告诉我的。”
“他们说你就相信吗?”“你说有没有可能你是他们领养的呢?”
“有可能。”
“那如果另一个男人告诉你他是你的父亲,有可能吗?”
“有可能。。。”
“那如果有另外十几个男人都说是你的父亲,你信谁的?”
“应该是第一个和我说的吧。。。”
“这就成了先下手为强嘛!”
(听众笑。。。)

唐牧师幽默风趣的交谈揭示出了“信仰的存在”以及“信仰的重要性”。确定父子关系当然可以通过基因鉴定实现,但我们不能在做“理性的鉴定”前矢口否定这极有可能成立的父子关系。
对天父的关系也是如此。

我们不能太过依赖于证据和证明,而在证据不明时盲目否认神的存在和一切可能的事实。而且《圣经》里说道:
“隐秘的事是属耶和华我们神的;惟有明显的事是永远属我们和我们子孙的,好叫我们遵行这律法上的一切话。” -- 申命记29:29

对于“信仰和理性”的关系,唐崇荣牧师认为,我们要对那暂没有证据显明的事有信心,再用我们获得的知识和理性的分析支持加强我们的信心。他认为在“信仰和理性”中找到那条契合的平衡线非常非常的难,而要一辈子都走在这条平衡的道路上更是困难艰险不断。那我们就只能一步一步走,对于不明白的,先信,再探索。唐崇荣牧师反对只依赖证据而毫无信心,同时他也反对盲目毫无理性的信仰。

再进一步阐明“信仰与理性”的关系里,唐牧师举了婚姻为例。
当我们要和爱侣结婚时,我们不会去查对方的祖宗十八代是否有人得过麻风病,不会去管对方之前有过几个情人,因为我们结婚的对象是他/她的现在与未来,而不是他/她的过去。
同时,在我们结婚的那一刻,我们都不能百分百确定对方是否真的会和自己白头偕老,难道我们就不结婚了吗?难道我们要等到有充分的“证据”才结婚吗?那样,我们结婚的时候也就是我们死的那一刻了!
所以没错,婚姻就是建立在“信仰与信心”的基础上的,恋爱关系其实也一样。

一小时左右的讲道会之后是回答提问时间,一些有趣的问题也引发了唐牧师有趣的回答。

问:只要我道德上很好,我就不需要宗教信仰。
答:如果只是道德好,行善,那我们有谁比牛更辛勤劳作,服事人类而不抱怨的呢?你们有谁觉得自己做得比牛更好的站起来!(无人站起,笑)如果只要道德崇高,那天堂就全是耕牛而没有人类了!所以人类凭着自己的信心和对神救恩的接受,在这世之后就能迎来永生,与神同在。此外,没有道德的基督徒是耶稣最不喜悦的,他也用最严厉的词称那些法利赛人为“伪君子”。因此,有道德的非基督徒是好过没有道德的基督徒的。

问:如何联系外星人和宗教信仰?(很有趣的问题,也是我最近想到的一个问题,全场笑)
答:我不确定有没有外星人,但如果有,那一定也是神创造的。神不仅仅创造了我们这一粒星球,而是创造了所有我们知道的一切和我们不知道的一切。如果有一天,我们发现并踏上了另一个星球,找到了另一群智慧生物,我们自己就是他们眼中的外星人,而我们是相信神的。

问:在中国(华人)传统中,人们更向佛,认为佛教比基督教更适合中国及中国人民,如何看待这个差别以及对祖宗文化的传承?
答: 错!恰恰相反,佛教比基督教更同中国传统背离!孟子有言:“不孝有三,无后为大。”你的祖宗辛辛苦苦传递香火到你这一代,佛教却要你出家做和尚,不得婚娶,不得有子孙,这是对祖宗传统最大的悖逆!耶稣就没有叫我们不要结婚生子,就没有背离中国的传统文化。

问:不拜孔子就不是中国人!(唐牧师以前收到的一个问题)
答:(唐牧师哈哈大笑)那孔子自己就不是中国人,因为他自己就没有拜自己!(全场大笑)年轻人不要太骄傲,以为自己想到了可以轻易打败宗教信仰的问题,其实到头来这个问题会将你的无知幼稚显露无疑。

唐崇荣牧师是一位智者,他的头脑十分清晰灵活,语言十分准确而生动,而令我钦佩不已。他对年轻人的教导与期望也非常值得钦佩,这次近距离的聆听讲道令我获益匪浅。

2010年10月6日星期三

想睡觉却睡不着。
该睡觉却想着一些自己解决不了的问题。究竟是我的需求没有被满足还是我要求太多?
突然想骂自己一句,越来越像个“娘儿们”了,哪来的这么胡思乱想!
又想骂自己无能,竟连睡个觉这样的事都做不好!
心里已经骂过了,该睡觉了。

随笔

冲凉时忽然觉得冷,开着热水,调得更热也还是觉得冷,不温暖。希望不是病了才好。

昨天诺贝尔物理学奖被授予了Graphene的发现者,来自俄国的Andre Geim和Konstantin Novoselov。刚巧做完一个graphene的小project,前前后后也查阅了不少Geim和Novoselov合作的文献,算是对他们的研究有一定了解。
他们从垃圾篓里捡回一张透明胶,上面粘着graphite的残迹,而他们就从这“垃圾”上分析发现了迄今为止世界上最坚硬的材料--graphene,这也为他们带来了诺贝尔奖。或许人们都应该开始随身携带着透明胶,这里粘粘那里蹭蹭,说不定就能粘到还未被发现的物质,甚至连外太空物质也不无可能。世界真奇妙,探索无止境。

时间过得真快,转眼间我这个博客也写了一年了。一年又过去了。

A piece of thought about credit card

I don't like credit card, even with its fancy appearance. I can't accept the act of borrowing others' money to spend for my own pleasure. Moreover, this moment of pleasure will be soon blown away by the stress/burden of paying back the money to lender -- banks -- the "legal 大耳隆", a term given by a friend which I totally agree with. 

But I have to admit the creator of this name -- Credit Card -- is super smart. 
What if credit card is called 'debt card', 'borrower card', 'loan card' etc.? 
More people will dislike it. But now it's well called and accepted as credit card.

Imagine the following conversations.
Scenario1:
A: Hi, do you have a credit card?
B: No, I don't have any.
A: (In mind) So poor, he must has no credit... (With pity and despisal)

Scenario2:
A: Hi, do you have a debt card?
B: No, I don't have any.
A: (In mind) Wow, he must be very rich without any debt... (With admiration and respect)

I don't like credit card, and I don't like to be fooled by the fancy and attractive appearance like in this case.
God says, "Be wise".

2010年10月4日星期一

Entry About City Harvest Church

When I was drinking tea after studying a bit of business finance, I decided to google for recent CHC news. But to my huge surprise, there was not any CHC news or even related webpage on google. Feeling unbelievable, I tried Bing search and was reassured of this surprise/shock. I'm not going to draw any conclusion from this unusual instance, but my curiosity was triggered undoubtedly and would remain there for certain time. 

My effort of searching CHC news lead me to one blog, with an entry commenting about CHC. see http://dellysunny.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!353FEFDD08D33E02!135.entry.

I have read a considerable amount of comments about CHC, mostly from fellow Christians. After reading this entry, I have to admit this is the 'best' one with which I agree most, not only his opinions but also his humble attitude. Again I'm not going to draw many conclusions, but just believe in, fellow and love our God.

Room-mate vs. Soul-mate

"We have been married for years but at timese I feel like we are room-mates instead of soul-mates. Our marriage lacks passion. Truthfully, it's boring and I'm afraid one or both of us will get interested in someone else if this doesn't change. What shall we do?"
~ Excellent room-mates

The traits of a room-mate marriage include:
  • Not eating meals together;
  • Watching TV without talking;
  • Communicating about problems and work but not communicating face to face;
  • Rarely praying or worshiping together;
  • Having physical intercourse without intimacy;
  • Arguing about finances but not working out a budget or financial plan together;
  • Feeling unnoticed or unappreciated by your spouse;
  • Becoming easily irritated or angry;
  • Going out to group functions but not staying together;
  • Not having a daily, positive time together to communicate face to face about your relationship; not about children, problems, money or work; and 
  • Feeling stressed out, tired, anxious and fearful about the future.
Soul-mate marriage, when a couple has true oneness, body, soul and spirit, looks like this:
  • Both enjoy doing things together, spending quality time together and sharing intimately -- body, soul and spirit;
  • Both seek out quiet times for prayer and sharing scripture together;
  • Both encourage and affirm one another, seeking to support each other in times of work or financial stress;
  • Both express the five love languages to each other -- gift giving, quality time, physical touch, affirming words and acts of service;
  • Both admit wrongs, ask for forgiveness and forgive one another;
  • Both laugh a lot, rest and eat right and find joy in the simple pleasures of life -- a walk, holding hands, sharing a hobby together, going out together, simply being together; and 
  • Both working to keep the marriage from getting into a rut.
A useful reference, quoted from citynews report. 

2010年10月2日星期六

How much do I rely on my own strength

During today's cgm, when I quieted down my heart, once again I realized I have relied on my own strength and wisdom too much, to the extent that is close to the "dangerous level". Being so confident about my character, being so confident about my ability and skills, my work and study, my current and future relationship with xiao hui, being so confident about almost everything in my life for such a long long time, I realize my confidence has overtaken my humbleness, and this confidence is turning into pride.

This is of great danger.
Being overconfident blindfolds myself, and this overconfidence (or pride) is doubtlessly creating blind areas in my viewing/understanding of myself and my life.
And the most dangerous situation is when I could not even see the danger.

I am relying TOO MUCH on my own strength and ability! 

During cgm, I felt the desire to have more of God when worshiping. After cgm, I realized the difference between my own strength and God's power.
My strength is a circle/sphere with what it contains inside. If I am smart enough, my circle can be bigger than others, and I may enlarge my circle of strength/ability through my diligent study and work, success and failure, even with the price of tears and blood. But, there is always the BOUNDARY! My strength and ability NEVER go beyond the line of circle!
But when I fully rely on God's power and strength, there is NO BOUNDARY to LIMIT GOD'S ABILITY! With God's strength, there is no limitation on where I can reach to!

Until here, I realize, relying on my own strength = limiting what God wants me to achieve, limiting God's almighty power in my life!

God, thus I commit myself into your almighty hands. Please break my pride, mold my heart into a heart of gentleness and humbleness. God, please comfort me, help me and change me.

2010年9月30日星期四

恋爱的季节

晚上十一点出去玩了半小时轮滑,以缓解对小慧的思念之情。流汗之后确实舒服多了,回寝室的途中却不小心作了一盏深夜里的电灯泡。
俗话说心灵美,眼睛看到的景物也美。我满心充满着对小慧的爱意,眼睛看到的也是甜蜜--一对甜蜜的“地下情人”。

他们是我的同学,和我关系都不错,也互相了解。男生来自中国,女生来自马来西亚,都沉默勤奋且待人热情。我和小慧是一动一静,一外向一内敛,相反相吸,反观他们则是静上加静,同类相吸。我在他们身后看到的自然也是手牵手,沉默着走。看到这么一对内向的情侣,不小心撞破他们“地下情”的我只得“害羞地”偷偷从旁假装什么都没看见。随即我倒是后知后觉地领悟了“难怪他们现在上课时整天坐在一起”。

感慨一,在这个全球化(Globalization)的今天,异国恋实在是稀疏平常的事情了。单单我的专业,就有一对新加坡男生,马来西亚女生夫妻;现在这对中国男生,马来西亚女生男女朋友;当然还有我这个中国男朋友和我的新加坡宝贝小慧!过去的种种局限现在被轻而易举地一个个击破,成全了的却是一段段幸福的爱情故事。

感慨二,在看到这又一对“地下”恋情后,放眼环顾自己的身旁,想的起来的朋友竟然大部分都已成双成对。而就在两三年前,大部分的我们还都是青葱小男孩和羞涩小女生,于单身生活自得其乐却又不免羡慕别人出双入对。转眼间,一只只形单影只的鸟儿们都找到了与自己双宿双飞的情人鸟。一天天长大的我们确实正式步入了恋爱的季节,都不再愣头愣脑地胡飞乱闯了。

感慨三,没有小慧在身边,没有小慧和我的甜蜜和幸福,看着别人的幸福也令我心里快乐,甚至也会荡起一阵阵幸福的波浪。看到我的新加坡室友和他的中国女朋友的开心亲密,看到一对新的恋人,想到身边及远方朋友们各自的甜蜜爱情,我和小慧不久以前的甜蜜幸福就像鲜花绽放在我的心田,散发出阵阵清香。

这实在是一个恋爱的季节,美好的季节。我的美好没有结束,不会结束。
前面是一片铺满迷人鲜花,青草绿树的幸福花园,而我会牵着我的小慧一同深深地沉浸在那片爱情花园中。