小慧试穿衣服

她和她妈妈忙着准备行李，不停地翻出冬天的衣服出来。然后就试穿一下从webcam里给我看。
哈哈，真可爱。

可爱的粉红色爱心马甲，素素毛毛的auntie毛衣， 红色的夹克外套，当然还有大大的大衣，哈哈，都很可爱~

我的衣服都还在朋友那里，要一件一件搜刮过来。。。哈哈。

小慧真可爱。:D

09/12/09 Evening PM

Had a nice long sleep today, thus went for evening PM instead, alone this time.

Not many people in prayer meeting today, but no problem. I like to be there, with God.

More thoughts/revelations.

1. Father, there are more for me to discover, from Your words, Your visions, Your dreams, Your plans for me.

There are more things that I am supposed to do, to achieve, for You.

I cannot stop moving on, instead, I will/ I must fight for You, for Your plan and expectation for me.

Yes, Lord, I will seek, seek hard, and build my life strong! I have more to achieve!

2. Father, I must do better and better everyday! I must do better today than yesterday! I must keep my fire strong!

3. Father, I will not let chance slip away from me again! I will fight for the chances in my life!

Amen.

A busy day preparing for harbin trip. Keep calling my friends, to borrow winter clothes, and my friends are always so nice. : )

So sad...didn't see dear for a whole day...

Okok, must get things done first, and greater days are here!

08/12/09 Morning PM

Reached church at 650am, xiao hui was late, as I expected...oops. But I was happy, because I was at prayer meeting again and i could see her very soon.

Some more thoughts/revelations.

1. Lord, Your kingdom come to our land. Lord, Your kingdom come to my heart!

2. I will not be who I am, I will not be where I am, and I will not have what I have now, if it is not You, my Lord!

3. Thank You Jesus, for always being there. I can always look onto You, cry out to You. Thank You Holy Spirit, for always leading me, guiding me, giving me the right words to say. Thank You, Holy Spirit, everyday.

4. Jesus, You surrendered Your life on that cross, what can I surrender to You, O Lord.

A super nice day with xiao hui after the nice PM. :D

07/12/09 Evening PM

First time having PM with dear since we are together, great!

A few thoughts/revelations to take down.

1. I cannot overly-rely on my own strength or ability to carry out with my life, otherwise I become my own god!

Oh Lord, in everything I shall/ I must rely on Your mighty hands. My way is Your way, but not created by my own wisdom.

Sorry O God.

Whenever I ignore You intentionally, I will surely fall, I will surely fail.

2. I will never feel You by 'analysis'. Oh Lord, please give me a pure heart, a clear mind, please work in me so that I can experience You.

3. In the midst of good time, don't forget to guard your heart, against devil!

Don't lose the heart of fighting the devil! Stay strong, be alert! Always!

Don't get lost in the happiest time!

Still, I am in the happiest time of my life. :D

3.5 weeks passed--Great days, and greater days yet to come

I love you, dear!
You know I am keeping more words somewhere else hehe. : )

Two weeks passed--Deeper in love with you : )

More words in my heart~

Hello fishes

I'm back blogging~

One week passed

And I'm indeed becoming even more 超级无敌.

Thank God for my dearest Xiao Hui. Thank God for everything.

I shall never withhold my praise and love and gratefulness for the refreshment -she- made yesterday, because they were really awesome/fantastic/tasty/sweet! I'm so proud of -her-!

And thank God I managed to memorize Cor13:4-7(华文) already. Just so amazing~

Time to study. Oh my five poor little cute fat golden fishes, I can't feed you everyday~ but I know you all are fat enough to survive yourselves until my next blog post~

The Best Ever Day-13/11/2009

The Best Ever Day!

             神

             爱

    俊               慧

Xiao Hui, I Love You!

I Love You

Xiao Hui :D :D
I cannot express how grateful I am, though I am still learning.
Xiao Hui, I Love You. :D :D

Learning to enjoy

Every time I started blogging, things would happen in my life, either good or not that good. Thus I confess once more, I am just not that type of netizen, I can survive well without this kind of popular fancy high tech..blog, facebook, msn...People cannot imagine a life without them, but to me, there is indeed a possibility.

Recently, my life hasn't been the same, and I've been quite happy. Moreover, my friends even managed to sense my recent change and told me of it. Yes, indeed I am quite happy.

Story doesn't end here though...

There are still moments when I feel totally lost, like sailing in the middle of a sea, with nothing else in sight but only the boundless sea.

When such feeling flashed into my mind, I just cannot help starting questioning myself, "Am I really that strong and mature as how I think of myself?", "Am I really that capable to handle every situations in my life?"

 "我自己也没发现。 厚厚的城墙重重围住了我的心。"--QH.

我自己又何尝不是这样呢?

 I'm still weak in certain areas of my life, I may still be blown away when the real "Typhoon" comes. I'm not going to pretend to be that strong when actually I am not.

But thank God, from the good sharing by Ps. Thompson today:

"I am the man whom God says I am; I am not the man whom I think I am".

Amen. I am not the man whom I think I am, I will look onto God and let God mold me with His mighty hands.

Also from Ps. Thompson, shared by QH:

"As long as you are fixed on what you are going through, you will never discover the life God has planned for you."

Amen. Dear God, thank You for reminding me with these great words. Thank you QH, for sharing this with me.

Yes, I got to learn. Learn to deal with my thoughts over problems, learn to fix myself on God in everything I do, and learn to enjoy.

Right. Though I am sailing in the middle of sea, I shall not fix my sight on the uncertain future; but, I will open my eyes, enjoy the beautiful sea, beautiful sky, stars and everything around me. And...I am not alone.

Too busy to blog

But it's ok since blogging is not very important to me.

p.s: another day working in lab till ??am and I shall complete 3.5 out of my 4 assignments in this week.

p.s.2: 359am, Hyperchem report done. time to breathe some fresh air.

p.s.3: I like my cute little fat red golden fish here.haha.

OH YEAH YEAH YEAH

尤文图斯5比1屠杀桑普多利亚!!!

I feel like to jump out of my chair and shout "YEAH YEAH YEAH"!!!

JUVENTUS!!!GO GO GO! I LOVE U!

I cannot describe my excitement but I'll just let myself go CRAZY today!

FORZA JUVE!

Things happened

again.

And this time it's even harder for me to handle.

Once, twice, and now... Good things in other people's eyes add on pressure to me.

I am cool? I am stable? I am still very stressed and burdened.

Not again and again...How should I handle it? What should I do?

Things just started happening after I started blogging again. I am just not the type of netizen.

Keep on walking at least. I must be a true worshiper.

Phosphatidylcholine

My 2nd simulation on a 2nd computer.

 Much nicer simulated results comparing to phosphatidylnositol.

Which means phosphatidylcholine is a  better drug delivery carrier unit? Let me study that out.

HyperChem Work

My phosphatidylinositol simulation-geometry optimization.

As time goes by...

The final result is still not bad. Futher analysis to be done.

HyperChem for fun

Waiting for the HyperChem simulation results. Just for fun.

 Constructed with my phophatidylcholine molecules.

2am+...

A good day - A post by use of QH's laptop

Let me put down a few simple words

1. I will start fasting from tmr onwards, to gain strength from God to go through this tough and busy period.
2. I'm not going back to hall until I finish part A of my ProE assignment.
3. 'My peace in the worst of time'--'My God Reigns'.
4. There are indeed certain things that I cannot handle on my own.
5. A bit upset. But also looking forward to seeing my own response to this difficult time.
6. This is quite an interesting situation. Let's see how I will response and what the results will be.
7. Still, I shall 大笑三声, hahaha.
8. God, please give me a peaceful sleep.

Very First Step

There's a strong desire in my heart to use Chinese characters, but no Chinese input is installed in my lab pc. And desires grow stronger when people cannot get what they want..

Back at school from service, have to admit there's something I wanna say but don't really know how to describe that. But I do know I would like to say some words, so here comes my very first blog post after maybe 3 or 4 years...

Just to clear off a few more words from the 3000-words-a-man-speaks-daily.

I'm quite happy with my current life.

I'm a bit busy with my studies recently.

Oh, I love God! And I must always remind myself to put God first!

I think I need some sports to burn out my extra energy. So I'm going roller blading tonight.

Aiya, QH just called me and screamed in the call, I feel like to scream too.. But I'm doing sports instead and I think that would be ok.

Emm, I'm quite happy but still being bothered by some stuff..I shall read Bible and my books more to comfort myself.

I want to type in the 'JIONG' which is a mission impossible now. JIONG JIONG JIONG!

Haha, I'm a bit happier now.

That's good, blogging makes me smile now, that's time worthy.

Good~

Water Baptism_30/08/2009

Praise the Lord, the day finally came to pass!

John and me, were water baptized on 30 Aug 2009. This marked a VICTORY in both of our lives. And I would take the boldness to shout, WE ARE WARRIORS OF GOD!
Heaven is open, new lives are here, and we are ready, to give whatever it takes to please our Heavenly Father! To be the LIGHT and SALT!

















Friends, thanks again for your love and support. God is amazing, Water Baptism is amazing, and you are the MOST amazing friends in our lives.

Spiritual Atmosphere--19/07 Service

--It's great to be in the House of God again.

3 weeks' break at home was incredible, while I also realized that it brought emptiness into my heart, spiritually. I'm still not a matured Christian, I think, thus I need to be fed with my 'food', regularly.
Thank God, Ps. Kong and many pastors are always there 'feeding' me.

Today, talking about 'Spiritual Atmosphere', Ps. Kong impressed and touched me deeply with his preaching.

It's easy to be a 'Christian', at the same time, it is really hard to be a Christian, a Christian that can build and carry spiritual atmosphere in daily life.
Yes, it's indeed hard. But I am always proud of being a Christian, being His child and disciple. Thus I will and I must always give my all to follow His wills, to please Him and to make Him proud of me.

There will be sacrifices, there will be challenges, there will be sufferings, and I am going to take all these, to fuel up my burning FIRE for the LORD, continuously, together with the harvest God gives me.
Until there comes the day, I come before Him, peacefully, smiling, saying: 'Father, I love You. And I have not let You down.'

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God has made time flies really fast. Elaine, we just have you back with us, but you are leaving us again in few days time.
It's just so great to have you around. Praise the Lord, you will be back with us after your 2 years study,right? :-)

Time really flies fast, but I'm gonna seize this last 3 weeks of my holiday, to do something significant, important, to not let Him down.
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12/06-Last Day of Morning Prayer Meeting

--I am not gonna complain about my life, which is given and planned by my LORD.

Hehe, praise the Lord, I stepped into church auditorium punctually, peacefully, cheerfully on this last day of June's MPM.
I am indeed grateful to God and proud of myself through this week's MPM. All by God's grace, I woke up everyday early and cheerfully, did not need to force myself to go; I never missed a single MPM, attended most sessions punctually; and after MPM, I still had enough energy to work everyday. And of course, what is most important is that I did receive certain revelations and felt my spirit being strengthened greatly by God. Only with God, all these things can be done.

1 thought came to me and here I shall take it down.

Jesus is the Truth, still Jesus suffered so much, for us, for me.
I, being a child of God, always pray to God that I can find the Truth, that I can seek Jesus. But, in my heart, I just don't have the kind of willingness to accept and endure the sufferings as Jesus did for us.
Oh, how immature my faith is. How much more there is for me to grow up in the Kingdom of God.
Yes, LORD, everything in my life, let it be done according to Your will. Any sufferings that are for Your sake, I will give my all to accept and endure them peacefully. In my life, I am not gonna complain about my life, complain about even very small things, because my life is given and planned by You, my LORD.
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I will let all these thoughts came to me be applied in my life, to follow Jesus, to please God.
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I continued to pray for Shi Fu, Grace and Xiu Wen during this MPM.

Shi Fu, you are a truely great 'Shi Fu' in my eyes. The way you talk, do things, the love and faith you have, the good characters you possess, all of them I appreciate so much. I can always find the right way of doing things from how you do them; I can always feel the peace you have in your life. Shi Fu, I pray, everyday, you will live a better life than yesterday. I pray great joy comes upon you, in God's kingdom, in your family, in your work, in every area of your life. And of course, I believe, at a good time, God will come, bless you tremendously with not only one, but maybe two or even more beautiful children to your life.
Shi Fu, you have been bringing joy into our lives, and there is surely a time that God will bring the Greatest Joy to you.

Grace, recently I couldn't see you so frequently, but every time I saw you, I just felt so happy. I remember one of our talks which was quite a long time ago, in the talk some of your words touched me so deeply that I don't think I will forget. I was asking why you went to Expo service alone while we were all at Jurong West, you told me that you went to Expo to worship God, and it doesn't matter so much of where you go, since putting God first is the essence of our faith.
I was and am still so touched by these words, I guess you must have forgotten these words but they indeed touched and impacted me a lot. Grace, all the best for your work and life here in Singapore. It's indeed not easy to live in a foreign country and especially you are a girl. Will always pray for you.

Xiu Wen, in the Bible Study today, just know that you were not feeling well today, and could tell that you were quite tired and weak now. I know you are a strong woman of God, and it really makes me worry about you to see you being so sick, but I know God is doing the healing right now and soon the Xiu Wen I know will come back to us, happily, energetically and with a cheerful heart containing 100% pure love for God. It has been so great knowing you, so young but doing so many great work for God. I wish one day I can be like you, doing great work for God. Also, I always like to talk to you and really thank you for sharing with me about our God.
Xiu Wen, God bless your study in NTU, and I believe through you, more and more people will feel the love of God, more and more people will enter into the kingdom of God! Keep on shinning for Him!
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I like attending prayer meetings, I never prayed so much for others before. And thank God, I have fulfilled my vow of attending all the MPMs.

Thank You, LORD, that I can also take all these words down, to keep they as good courage in my future life.
From all these, I know God loves me and strengthens me everyday.
And I know, in God, we are children of a Family called W116. Amen.

11/06-Morning Prayer Meeting

--The more tired I am in my body, the stronger I am in my spirit.

The second last day of these 5 day's prayer meeting, and I feel grateful to see some same faces early in the prayer meeting everyday.
And of course, Ps. Kong, Ps. Derrick and many worship leaders were all the time with us.

Today I spent my time praying for some sisters.

Qi Hui, you are a wonderful sister that I always feel happy to be with. I indeed shared the great joy of your good results in NTU, and I am looking forward to seeing you shining even more brilliantly after your SOT, brighter than all the stars you like. God bless your next stage of life after NTU. Jia you QH, keep things up and continue to be excellent. I'm proud of being your friend.

Verona, I'm always thankful for you, it is you brought me to the house of God. Thank you, verona. I will not forget the Easter service you brought me to in 2008; I will not forget the 1st prayer you prayed for me through phone; and I will not forget the changes you have brought into my life. I pray God bless you greatly in your SOT; I pray God will always reveal Himself whenever you faithfully seek His face; I pray God will use you more and mightily to be the Light of the world, Salt of the earth.

Isabelle, I saw a kind of faith in you that touches my heart. It's simple but great, it's strong and pure. You are also thoughtful, and I pray God be with you in every minutes and seconds, bringing peace to your work, pouring joy to your family, and building up your spirit everyday.It's really good to walk in the kingdom of God together with you. God bless you, Isabelle.

Amanda, it has been sometimes that I couldn't spend time and share with you due to your busy work. I like busy life and I am always happy to see friends living a busy and fruitful life. But I really miss the time having you around. I put all my trust in God, and I always thank God for every little good things in my life. Thus I indeed believe God is there, loving you, protecting you, helping you with your work, helping you to arrange your time and life, helping you in every little things in your daily life. Really hope to see you more, to spend more time together sharing, praising and worshipping our God. Please take good care of your health, God bless you, Amanda.

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Today I did feel tired for a moment during praying, but I knew my spirit was strong, having God being my great Source of Strength.
Thank You, LORD.
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1 more weekday MPM and 1 more Sunday PM ahead.

10/06-Morning Prayer Meeting

--I am not gonna be troubled by those small things.

7am-->655am-->645am, the time I reached church these 3 days.

Praise the Lord, I am doing better and better on my punctuality.

75mins of MPM = 35mins praying in tongues + 20mins building our own altars + 20mins praying for church.

With peace in my heart, I prayed for Elaine, Vic and Shella this morning.

Elaine, have good health in your first winter, give your best to prepare your coming exams and continue to do great work for Him. God has indeed placed you as a wonderful role model in my life, and God will surely bless you extraordinarily in these best two years of your life. Jia you, Elaine.

Vic, all the best for your coming Boston trip. I believe God will surely open up your eyes, broaden your experience and enlarge your capacity, throughout this 6-week's trip. Also, I prayed for you and Kenneth. Really, I prayed that God bless both of you, thus we may see a happiest new family in a near future. :-)

Shella, how are you feeling now? Please rest more and well, let God do the healing slowly but steadily. Let's put our trust in God, let God release your pain and bring even more joy into your life. Shella, indeed you are a blessing to the people around you, your warm heart, your big smile, your spontaneous songs (they are indeed nice), your music talent, your understanding, some of your jokes and a lot more...Please keep them up. God bless you, in your study, family, spiritual life, daily life and I shall not forget, your relationship. :-)

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I find all my posts are a bit long, I guess I still have a lot to do to make my posts more brief and understandable.(Another long sentence again...)
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For myself, as stated at the very beginning, 'I am not gonna be troubled by those small things', which I do need to work on.
And thank You Lord, I know You are working in me everyday, and I am growing up from day to day. Amen.

09/06-Morning Prayer Meeting

--Indeed, when I put all my trust in God, I felt exceeding peace in heart.

Second day of MPM, started at 645am, good to have Ps. Kong with us again.

We prayed for the coming celebrity weekend services, new church building, every member's finance at this tough time, Sun's health and our individual prayer requests.

It's always great to pray, to worship our Lord, to lift His name high.

Again a few thoughts came to me when I came before God.

1. Thank You, God, that I could open my eyes early in the morning, come to Your House, seek Your face. Thank You, God, for bringing me to another beautiful day.

2. All the time, God is so willing to bless us; at the same time, I believe God will be well pleased to see His children step out, follow His way, shine for Him, and lift His name high.

3. I shall glorify God with my hands, instead of just asking blessings from God's hands.

4. On the way of seeking truth in my life, I shall just keep on walking. Either through the truth, or through the false. One day, God will surely reveal the real truth to me. I will never stop walking on.

5. I feel I shall have a bigger vision in God's kingdom. Sometimes focusing on the details won't help. A big vision from God; a big vision for God.

6. Everyone is equal before God. We are all of same importance to God, we are all precious children to God. Being more capable in certain fields never makes one superior over another.

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Lord is indeed our all powerful God.
感谢,赞美,将所有荣耀都归于主.
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It's a great time praying in this second day of MPM. And the 早餐团契 was also good.

Qi Hui, Isabelle, Vic, Kenneth, Xiu Wen, Gary, Shella, Peng Ru and Yuan Jun went for breakfast together after MPM.

And also, I shall not forget to say, ‘THANK YOU’ for all the surprises and best wishes you brought to me on my birthday, sisters and brothers.
I like everything you did for me, the surprise, the card, the gifts, the 一统江湖cake, and of course your love.
Ya, I love you all and really thank you for all these.
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Third day of MPM coming in a few hours time.
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Updated by Yuan Jun.

08/06-Morning Prayer Meeting

----Indeed, without prayer, I feel my life dries up.

I always feel I shall put more effort to explore the kingdom of God, all the time.

5 days morning prayer meetings, here is the time to lift up my spiritual life, I will not let this precious chance slip away from me.

Praise the Lord, for everything in my life.
Thank You Jesus, for being my Savior.
Thank You Holy Spirit, for being my Friend guiding me daily.

A few thoughts came to me during MPM.

1. There is no point if, in my life, I achieve great success, but forget to love God.

2. Comparing the love He gives me, how little my love for Him is. And I still let Him down sometimes. God is so loving, Jesus is so loving, and I shall give my best to follow Jesus, to be more like Jesus.

3. God is all the time willing to heal us, to do miracles in our lives, it's just us that are not faithful enough to receive His blessings.

4. Let everything be done according to God's will. Everything that we care and God cares about.

Indeed, I am precious before God; at the same time, I am no one before God.
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Dear sisters and brothers of W116, really thanks a lot for all your birthday wishes. :-)

Thank You, Lord, now I know my birthday means more than just a date to me.

Thanks again, friends. :-)
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Updated by Yuan Jun