An unordinary church service -- Continued

The previous post summarizes the preaching of church service, in which I have left another big portion to be written in this 2nd post, that is -- I miss my dear before, during, after service, morning till night, Jurong to Clementi, all the way, all the time!

Without dear walking/ushering in my eye sight, without dear sitting beside me and we holding each others' hands, something has indeed escaped from my life -- the sweetness, the happiness and dear's most precious presence.

Friends were so nice and caring to ask me how I felt without xiaohui, I said "so far so good" most of the time. But only in my heart, I know how much I miss xiaohui, miss holding her hand and walking back to NTU together. Sigh, service and services without xiaohui, I love and miss having dear with me..

I fellowship-ed more with other friends since I'm alone without xiaohui, but in the end, they are never going to replace the happiness and closeness I would have with her. Sigh, one of the good things that could comfort my heart is that I never missed the sweet moments with dear when she was around, at least I have no regret to sadden my heart further.

Still, I thank all the friends who care about me and xiaohui, and they told me, only God can fill the emptiness. Yes, I ask for God but not anything anyone else when dear is not here with me.

I love you, dear!

I miss you, dear!

I love You, God Father!

I ask for more of You, God Father!