I am changing

And to say it more directly, I am losing something inside me that I treasure a lot, and I would never like to see I lose them in the end. 

Sad but have to admit, I am losing or at least I feel I am losing certain good characters along these few months. 

The genuine love towards people especially those considered close to me; the unconditional willingness to offer a hand to some friends; the patient and gentle heart to handle conflicts between church and me; maybe some more. 

After writing down these three things, I suddenly realize I would say my heart is hardening. 

And this is definitely something I would/must do everything I can to prevent it from happening or going worse.

Now that I am changing, I must make sure I change to a better side, this is a MUST! For God's and my own sake.