Learning to enjoy

Every time I started blogging, things would happen in my life, either good or not that good. Thus I confess once more, I am just not that type of netizen, I can survive well without this kind of popular fancy high tech..blog, facebook, msn...People cannot imagine a life without them, but to me, there is indeed a possibility.

Recently, my life hasn't been the same, and I've been quite happy. Moreover, my friends even managed to sense my recent change and told me of it. Yes, indeed I am quite happy.

Story doesn't end here though...

There are still moments when I feel totally lost, like sailing in the middle of a sea, with nothing else in sight but only the boundless sea.

When such feeling flashed into my mind, I just cannot help starting questioning myself, "Am I really that strong and mature as how I think of myself?", "Am I really that capable to handle every situations in my life?"

 "我自己也没发现。 厚厚的城墙重重围住了我的心。"--QH.

我自己又何尝不是这样呢?

 I'm still weak in certain areas of my life, I may still be blown away when the real "Typhoon" comes. I'm not going to pretend to be that strong when actually I am not.

But thank God, from the good sharing by Ps. Thompson today:

"I am the man whom God says I am; I am not the man whom I think I am".

Amen. I am not the man whom I think I am, I will look onto God and let God mold me with His mighty hands.

Also from Ps. Thompson, shared by QH:

"As long as you are fixed on what you are going through, you will never discover the life God has planned for you."

Amen. Dear God, thank You for reminding me with these great words. Thank you QH, for sharing this with me.

Yes, I got to learn. Learn to deal with my thoughts over problems, learn to fix myself on God in everything I do, and learn to enjoy.

Right. Though I am sailing in the middle of sea, I shall not fix my sight on the uncertain future; but, I will open my eyes, enjoy the beautiful sea, beautiful sky, stars and everything around me. And...I am not alone.